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Sunday’s Text: Hebrews 4:14-16

I was so blessed this past Sunday during our worship service at Westwood.

I can’t help but reflect on an experience that I had shared in an email with some of you back in March of 2009.

An experience that my heart will forever return to…..

I was home alone or so I thought. I had just finished watching and listening to Johnny Cash on DVD as he read the first 4 chapters in Hebrews.

There is something about “seeing” the words as we read, as well as “hearing” them.. I completely understand the impact of having God’s written Word on the big screens in our churches. God’s Word is living and powerful, sharper than any two -edged sword.

 Can you see it?  sWord

Let me share the portion of God’s Word that went deep into my soul. 

Seeing then that we have a great High Priest who has passed through the heavens, Jesus the Son of God, let us hold fast our confession. 15 For we do not have a High Priest who cannot sympathize with our weaknesses, but was in all points tempted as we are, yet without sin. 16 Let us therefore come boldly to the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy and find grace to help in time of need. 

That final verse and the word “boldly” jumped out at me.

It is because of  Christ  that I can come “boldly” to His Throne of Grace.

Yes, me, Terry….  I can come “boldly” to His Throne of Grace.

As  I lowered myself to the floor I knelt over the couch…. I then entered “boldly” into God’s Throne room.

There I was on my knees in such a glorious place. As I raised my head to look around.  The light was so bright. His Glory was so great!! I had to close my eyes….

But as soon as I closed my physical eyes my spiritual eyes were opened. I saw Jesus!  Sitting at the right hand of the Father. Glory was all around.

But wait! Now I see, Jesus is standing up… and coming down the steps towards me. His eyes, my soul’s connection. He is glowing and radiant with peace. As He takes my left hand, I can feel the  scar in His hand.

Our eyes remain connected. As He continues to hold my hand, and lead me up……. step by step….. towards the Father on….His Throne of Grace.

Then as we reach the final step .

He turns and places Himself between me and the Father. And as I watch ……Jesus sits back and melts into the Father……. His Glory is shown all around. My eyes cannot contain it…… and as I dropped my face to the floor before Him. It is there that I see, His nail scarred feet. Perfect…. Beautiful … scarred feet.

I was there, at His Throne of Grace. I had no words, for I could only see and could not speak.

This was my time of need. And He was all I needed….

After some time had passed just resting at His feet. I then brought my petitions before Him. Thanking Him for His wonderful Grace and holding fast to my confession that Jesus is the Son of God! Being so thankful for my opportunity to come “Boldly” before His Throne.

I mentioned earlier that I was home alone. As I remained in His presence. All of a sudden I heard a door open with the slightest little squeak. As I am still kneeling over the couch, I then feel Fireball (our cat) jump on my back.  And immediately he laid down and outstretched his paws as if to be “bowing”.

While a smile came to my face at the thought of what I was feeling on my back and could not see… What I could see was my LORD smiling down at me….

During Sunday’s message Pastor Steve was describing many of us standing on a ledge with our arms lifted high holding on to God.  Asking; what is holding us back from jumping and putting all of our Trust in Him?

That was so powerful and convicting for me.  Because I know, without a doubt…….

I have been brought “boldly” to God’s Throne of Grace.

How about you? You can go “boldly” to Him…

He is waiting…..

Just close your eyes and open your heart and you will see Him.

Happy Valentines Day!



Comments on the Bible Study Duty or Delight ?

May 31,2011


As I began this study reading the introduction. I became well aware that I was going to be challenged. Not only in the connecting, growing, serving and going. But more like… “facing…. myself”…

It seems like my walk with the Lord has lost the joy and excitement it once had and I’m so looking forward to being refreshed…

Onto the Pitfall or trap #1. Our Twisted Theology. The performance based faith.

Boy, do I fall into that trap regularly. And what is worse is that I know it and sooooooo… need to “stop it.” I’m not sure where it started probably as a child because as long as I can remember, I have always had this feeling of not being “good enough.” It’s like I’m always trying to “prove” something.

Now don’t get me wrong. I know it is CHRIST, who has SAVED me….My heart knows this very well. But my head has a mind of its own, and is very stubborn and wants to… “control.”

In the scripture verse: Philippians 1:6. I am sure of this, that He who started a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus. What jumped out at me was the words “will carry.” I have a hard time letting someone “carry” me. Yep, there’s that trap #2 perfectionism.

I believe this Bible study is gonna have the LORD all up in my business hehehee.. if you know what I mean ? 8-]

One thing I’m sure of this evening is that “ He has CHOSEN me and is PURSUING me….

June 2,2011

Pitfall #1 Our Twisted Theology.

The Lord is still dealing with me and His words “will carry”…… The day before yesterday I mentioned that for some reason the words “will carry” came off the page at me in: Philippians 1:6…. I am sure of this that He who started a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus.

And then HE brought to my remembrance: Hebrew 4:12. For the Word of God is living and powerful, and sharper than any two edged sword, piercing even to the division of soul and spirit and of joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intents of the heart.

God’s Word is powerful and that is what I need to know in order to have peace and rest. That HE “will carry” me… All day yesterday I remembered our “confidence booster.” For He chose us in Him, before the foundation of the world, to be holy and blameless in His sight.” Ephesians 1:4.

I put that scripture on my cell phone to continually remind myself that HE chose me… and I have tried to let that go deep into my soul.

HE is seeking me..

I don’t need to press things, or force things. He will provide the time needed for study and as I found out this morning will enlighten me as I go with many other things along my path….

This is how my day started. First thing I did, as I do every morning is come before the Lord while my eyes are not yet opened. I become conscious while lying in bed. I envision myself face down at HIS throne of Grace. But this morning it occurred to me that I did not come just because of my own free will…

But that HE had summoned me.

HE awoke me….

HE causes my heart to beat…

HE is my breath…

Talk about a wow !! moment.

HE is seeking me…

After spending just a little time with HIM I decided for some reason to turn on the TV in my room. And the first time ever there was a minister by the name of Kerry Shook. I had never heard of or seen him before. But I was about to see an illustration for why the words “will carry” jumped out at me while I was doing the homework for Pitfall #1 page 15.

The Lord has set this morning in motion through someone I don’t even know, to show me my walk with Him. Or more less my response to HIS “will carry.

And that is what I’d like to share with you. I searched the internet. HIGH and low to possibly find that media clip so that I could share it with you. But it looks like I’m gonna have to try and explain using only words and maybe some photos if I can find some. He had started out talking about how many times people had sent the Footprints poem to him. While the first ten times were sentimental and touching after the 400th time receiving it became like oh, yeah, yeah. But it wasn’t so much as what he said as what he illustrated.

He had before him a tray of sand and with his hands in the sand he created four footprints. Oh, how I pray you can see this. And then with his hand he erased two of the footprints. And of course only leaving two. This is where we assume the illustration is showing where the Lord is carrying the person.

What really grabbed my attention is what he did next. And I was well aware this was being shown to me from the LORD. He erased the remaining footprints and again with his hands created two hard tracks in the sand. Imagine it , if you can. Two deep rutted tracks in the sand… That was me! I have dug my heels in and He has had to drag me through my Seasons in the Sand…


HE “has”… CHOSEN me!!!

Seasons in the Sand